"That was what I liked about him. Actually he was the one who got me started to listening to all the Rap stuff and appreciating it, 'cos before that I never quite got what's so pleasing about rhyming to a constant beat by these black guys claiming to gangsters. It used to be all a joke to me until I saw how inspirational they can be to someone who had been looked down on and down in the dumps. How not everyone grew up with everything and how that does not equate to failure. That it was possible to pick yourself up and be something and someone. He showed me this song, 2Pac's Better Dayz, that helped him through so much. On this dark night when my vulnerabilities struck, he tried his best to comfort me by listening to this song on his iPod with me and told me I had more than so many other people and I had the tools to succeed and rest was up to me and that I was amazing and a good girl and I could do it. That was one thing I've always liked about him..that he knew all these random trivial about the music he cared about, because it was important to be passionate."
That was the dinner topic between me and my mom just yesterday night. Foolish, on hindsight, but I am a fool that way.
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
- Linkin Park,
Leave Out All the RestI guess that's something you don't quite subscribe to ay? No worries though, all you've done is paint yourself in a really bad light. I won't deny that I'm not hurting, but I believe in bleeding it out, so it's still all good.
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